Hello, before you freak out I'm not canceling or changing the game, this is more like something that I need to get out of my chest, and I know that my personal life and my work are two different things but now this is affecting all aspects of my life so I wanted to talk to all of you.

Maybe you have noticed that dev logs and updates have been taking more time to get released and at the start of the year that would be pure laziness, to be honest with you but unfortunately for me, that's not been the case lately.

And to put it in simple terms: I'm not feeling well.

I'm not sick or anything like it was in January but this is more of the emotional type.

This has been something that I have been dragging out for years, a lot of feelings that I have been suppressing so far, but I can't anymore. I have come to the point where my feelings, my thoughts, and my body reacts different to one another, and it's scary not knowing what do you really want or even who you are as a person, and the times I have done something that would bring me joy only to feel an emotional emptiness inside my chest minutes later, made me afraid not only because of the conflicted feelings but what if this were to become a habit for the rest of my life.

I've always put the well beings of others before mine, I liked to support other people in need or sacrifice my happiness just to see others' smiles or made them feel a little bit better, but one cannot do that forever, and it's clear to me now.

I have a lot of inner problems from self-esteem, insecurity, anxiety, and some others that I may discover in the near future, I have known most of these my whole life but I just brush them aside or joke about them every time a conversation went there.

So after all of this, I have been trying to keep a bright smile, to not worry others, keep my problems to myself, and still go on my way to help others even if it meant that I would just get hurt in the process.

And here I am after reaching my breakpoint, I realized what I want right now: I don't want to be a millionaire, I don't want to be famous, I don't want to have the perfect friend or girlfriend, I don't want to have a perfect life...I only want to be genuinely happy...and to accomplish that I need to work on myself first.

So I have reached out for professional help, I have been trying to open up with people about my situation and I know for some of you these words don't mean anything, I'm just a stranger on the internet making a visual novel at the end of the day, but for the rest of you thank you for hearing me out, this is not an easy thing to share and if some of you think or know that you are passing to a dark time like myself or have the minimum suspicious that you are not feeling good with yourself, please seek help, it's a very repetitive advice and you must have heard it a million times before but it's true, it's hard to realize you are not well and it's harder to get help, but that won't make you less of a person.

Lastly, even after seeking help, I know this will take time, this is not something that will get fixed from one day to another. But it's a process I want to undertake. If you feel like this will take a toll on the game's development, I wish I could tell you it won't but it already has and for some months now. If you want to drop your pledge on Patreon in the meantime I won't be upset, after all, you have all the right to do so. I won't stop working on the game and uploading the devlogs or renders but I just want you to be patient with me, I'm sorry for the trouble but I need to look for myself before anything else for the first time in a long time. Have a good day everyone!